I had a crazy thing happen yesterday. It was my day to go to a personal EFT session with Irene Baum, EFT-INT, on north side of Milwaukee. Last week, Irene & I pulled out some real emotional dirt for me around my baby sister’s death back in 1961, when I was 8 years old. We cleared a lot of it, but I knew it wasn’t done, so I made another appointment with Irene for yesterday. Last week, a day after the appointment, I finally tapped, asking my subconscious to please hang onto the junk for another 4 days. It has done it for me for 52 years, I just needed 4 more days over the 4th of July holiday weekend, and it could cut loose at 1 P.M. on the Tuesday thereafter. I’d be at Irene’s for this appointment and we would deal with the emotional pain/issues then. The subconscious complied until early afternoon on the following Monday. I wondered if I miscalculated and should have told it “5 days”! The subconscious is very literal, you know. It does exactly what it is told to do, right down to the minute sometimes, I think. Monday afternoon hit and I could feel something building, once again, in my chest. I was getting crabby and irritable. This is how I feel when something is trying to escape from my memories. A couple nights before, for some unknown reason, I felt so itchy all over, and suddenly the words came to me, “Something is itching to get out!” Seriously? Monday, I knew it was really “itching” to escape.
Early Tuesday morning I awoke & cried my eyes red for probably 30 to 60 minutes, eventually falling back to sleep. By mid-morning Tuesday I couldn't walk or talk straight. I’m never like this. My brain was foggy. I couldn’t figure out where my feet were, nor could I string 7 words together without stopping, like an aphasic person, to think about what the topic was I was commenting on. I was a mess, and I would have had Brad take me to the appointment because I wasn’t sure I could drive decently either, except I broke the toilet earlier and he had to wait for the plumber! I’d had better days! I had brought along a picture to Irene’s of my now dead sister from 1961, showing the 2 of us sitting on Grandma’s sofa. Those haunting eyes of Karen’s are what was getting to me emotionally. Here was my little terminally ill sister at 10 months. I was beside her, but my eyes looked as though I wasn’t present whatsoever. I was off somewhere in la-la land. That was problematic to me, as it simply showed I had already checked out of life by the time I was the age of 8.
I need not tell of everything Irene and I tapped on, or how many tears I cried, but the emotional pain manifested itself in a stabbing pain in my left temple area. Then it was a knife slicing through the back of my head into that same temple, followed by some variations thereof, but I knew what it was. It was Dad back-handing me at the supper table the time he knocked me off my chair and I hit the wall. I know it was that side of my head. It was closest to him. Irene and I tapped everything on the planet out of that memory. We thoroughly scoured it to include plenty of shame and humiliation, anger and sadness, and several other emotions. At the end of the tapping, the pain had changed and I realized it was a hollow pain, like a phantom pain that amputees get, a pain where a memory had been. A deep wound that was now empty. It was a very odd feeling. Something I had never experienced before now.
Then I realized driving home that the left temple would signify what this website showed me: http://www.nlp-practitioners.com/interactive/nlp-eye-access-cues-game.php#theFace . A friend had just emailed me this site a few days before my tapping session. The left temporal area is where visual memories are stored, according to NLP. Oh, my, that awful memory and all of its accompanying emotions of humiliation and shame of being smacked off my chair in front of everyone had been held in that field ever since. My subconscious once again had been so literal.
Not only was I clouted on the left side of the head that evening long ago, it was the same approximate area where the subconscious held those types of old visual memories. About an hour later the pain just dissipated, as I figured it would do. The memory was neutralized, and the accompanying pain just faded away. This all brought me back to an EFT class I once attended that was taught by Dawson Church. I think it was a Level 3 class, if I’m not mistaken. I remember him, when discussing the use of the Gamut 9, talking about watching the client carefully when circling with the eyes, once in each direction, because, if the practitioner watches carefully, they may detect a spot where the client simply misses in that circling. When that happens, it tends to be the spot where the memory is held, and the practitioner should just go over that spot again and again until the client no longer skips over it with the eye roll. On occasion, as I would once in a while use the Gamut 9 on myself, when I couldn’t get an emotion to totally clear, I thought I caught myself skipping the 2 o’clock and the 10 o’clock positions, or simply glossing over them.
Looking back at yesterday, I suspect that was probably true. Also in Donna Eden Energy Medicine book (2008), she mentions on pages 347-350 about using eye exercises to release trauma. Her exercises are a wee bit different than the Gamut 9, but I don’t doubt any less effective. Once again, I find all of this Energy Psychology/Energy Medicine knowledge so absolutely interesting. Each different modality builds or supplements the other, having a little bit of a different twist here and there, but all of it effective and healing in its own right. Dawson Church is doing a Whole Energy Lifestyle (WEL) workshop, Aug 31 & Sep 1, 2013, in Kansas City. Maybe he is covering topics like the ones I mentioned above. I don’t know, but, if he is, I want to know more about them! See this website: http://www.regonline.com/Register/Checkin.aspx?EventID=1239752 .
Wow, are we privileged to be living in this spectacular time when all of these techniques are coming into full bloom? I stand amazed! And I am grateful to God for showing me the way to use them for healing of both myself and others. I find it all quite humbling!
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