Wow, is God really exploding some of His truths into my consciousness! This is almost scary! I pray often for the Wisdom of Solomon, and I know that many times I understand far beyond what I probably should, or see what is really happening below the surface, in situations around me. At times, it is a heavy responsibility because, if I speak out with the truth, I’m ignored or rejected. I believe this is a true gift from the Holy Spirit – it is discernment, a rare gift.
Does it make me more special than anyone else? Nope! Everyone has gifts of the Holy Spirit. The only question is: are we willing to submit to His holy will and use them for the glorification of His Kingdom? One gift is no better or any worse than another. St. Paul tells us in 1 Corinthians 12: 4-6 & 11, “There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit distributes them. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but in all of them and in everyone it is the same God at work. All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he distributes them to each one, just as he determines”. God gives us exactly what He wants us to have, but the point is we must use what we are given. I mean used actively for the furtherance of His Kingdom here on earth.
My heart is nearly overwhelmed with God’s truth of the past several days. I’m trying to figure out, well, the Holy Spirit is doing the work here, how to make a Christian EFT model, one that can be implemented easily & quickly into the churches nationwide - something understandable with simple concepts on all aspects of the science & psychology of all things EFT.
I’m working with a particularly “difficult” client right now, not that she is being difficult, but that her negative life process is so deeply embedded from years and years of depression. This in & of itself makes this a tough case, but it all goes one step further. She, and I shall call her Edith, is some prominent in the community. Edith is a Christian who is in a rotten place in life, not by any choice of hers. I need to make Edith’s faith plain to her as we use EFT. God is showing me how He wants Christian EFT to go through Edith’s pain.
The other “difficulty” here is as much as I want to divorce my own personal feelings from this tapping case, I find myself slipping back into some of my old patterns of self-doubt and fears, too. I’ve tapped about all this, and I’ve rebuked satan & covered myself with the Blood of the Lamb, but the doubts linger. What if I fail? What if I screw up here? What if EFT lets me down? What if Edith’s disease process is so bad that not even EFT can pry it loose? On and on I go with the internal questions.
I have a small squadron of my personal prayer warriors standing behind me, as I do these tough cases. I would never even consider doing any of this work without having myself covered in prayer, and with this woman even more so!
I’ve prayed now for 3 years for God to reveal what & how He wants me to use the EFT that He has given me. I feel He wants me to produce a specifically Christian brand of EFT for the churches, something most denominations will be comfortable with, no matter how liberal or how conservative. When I started developing this I had absolutely no idea what it would look like. None. I had an offer of a free website, specifically for Christians, and I jumped on that. I won’t turn down something free. Once, the website was agreed upon, I embarked on writing all these blogs, as a free blog was also part of the website deal. As I write God just explodes in my head, one idea after another, stuff I would have never, ever thought of myself. Wow, is God amazing, or what?
However, in this process, and in this new “difficult” case He dumped onto my lap, I’ve realized/learned a few new things.
This is an added dimension of trust that I found in me. I never realized it was there, and I know it is enhanced by own personal EFT work. This is a God thing! This is not of me. As I work daily at this new website and blog, and now this new case with Edith, I realize how vulnerable I feel. I’ve just opened myself up once again to rejection and fear of failure. Today, I realized (while having iced tea with a dear sweet young gal & her 2 beautiful little daughters) exactly what I’m feeling. I’m scared I will screw this all up. That was a huge fear of mine as a child, well into my adult life. It kept me tied up, holding back from doing what God wanted me to do. I couldn’t even trust Him to make stuff work out.
I realized today that EFT has taken me beyond all that, at least for today, and that is all God asks of us – walk with Him one day at a time, trusting Him the entire way, to deal with whatever befalls us. As I have tapped away my childhood issues, God is faithful to me. He has opened up an entirely new level of trust & dependence on Him. I see where, and I knew this before, but it never stopped me from worrying, my failure and possible rejection has absolutely nothing to do with me. This is huge! If I have complete and total dependence on Him, then, if failure occurs, it is His will for His purpose that it happens. I’m not a failure in His eyes, no matter what other men think. I’m a failure only if I fail to do as He bids me do. I fail if I allow myself to fall into disobedience to His holy will.
Now, don’t get me wrong, intellectually I always knew all this, but today, for the first time in my life, I feel this! I finally get it! Something has changed in my physiology! EFT tapping has changed something, making it now a part of me. God is at work.
I’ve cleared out enough emotional garbage that God can finally use me for His eternal purposes. Most of the self-doubting worry is gone. And I mean really gone, as in vanished. I think I have arrived at the place where the lilies of the field live! Matthew 6:25-33 reads:
“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear? For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you”.
I’m not called to look down the road a hundred miles, I’m only told to take one step at a time within the will of God, & seek His Kingdom first. I have no need to know what is ahead, and now the past is disabled, thanks to EFT. All that counts is the present. God has the past and God has the future (“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” Matthew 6:34).
I need only concern myself with the here and now – live in the mindfulness of the present, enjoying every minute God has allowed me to have on this earth. And the here and now is listening to the beckoning of the Holy Spirit, His instructions for my life, and then stepping out in faith & follow exactly those instructions. It means being completely and totally yielded to Him in everything.
What a spot to find myself in! I’ve never been here before. I think it is pretty neat! Will I falter again & resume worrying? Possibly, but God has given me a wonderful tool in EFT. When worry or doubt sets in, I stop, excuse myself from the conversation, and head to a remote, quiet place and tap. What do I tap? First, I repent of the worry & doubt, and then I tap & pray, asking God to once again restore unto me His precious peace and confidence in knowing that I am walking in His perfect will. Psalm 51:10-12 reads: “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence, and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit”.
What an amazing place to be, now that I’m 60 years old! The bottom line here is this: As I have tapped my way into internal cleanness, dredging up & discarding all of my emotional junk, God has honored me by blowing open a spiritual component to my Christian life that I never dreamed possible. Maybe this is the stuff, dimensions that the Christian mystics and fathers have spoken of in eons gone by. I knew nothing of it. How could I? They were so buried under my pain and hurt and negative feelings, nothing good could penetrate them. I’ve picked and prodded myself, peeling away layer upon layer, of useless emotions, arriving at a spot I desired, but never thought possible. This may well be the peace that passes all understanding that St. Paul talks about in Philippians (“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” – Philippians 4:6-7). If it isn’t, then what in the world does that look like? I’d surely be anxious to know, wouldn’t you? Peace & trust, what a wonderful place to dwell. Thank you, Lord, thank you!
If you are interested in finding out how to get to this trustful place in your life, email me. I would love to show you how to do that with EFT. It really does work as I say it does. God be praised!
To schedule a free EFT coaching session, email me at eftforchristians@gmail.com
Always remember to take complete responsibility for your own health and well-being.
